Train Song (aka Paler Shade of Grey)

   I try to recall what it was you said to me just then
   but this train keeps on rocking me back to sleep
   and I fear come tomorrow I won't even remember your name
   
   I'd make myself remember
   Make myself recall
   but these promises and these vows I made you now
   seem to have no voice at all
   The color of the canyons
   When first it was said I love you
   But these colors and these canyons
   now all seem silly and small
   I don't understand at all
   how these colors in my memory just fade
   into such a pale shade of grey
   
   and cold rails remind me of your cold feet
   and my eyes expect to see you behind every door
   but when I shut my eyes
   I can't even recall what it is that you wore
   My god was that only yesterday
   I can't even remember your face
   I feel so far away
   
   I make myself remember
   Make myself recall
   but these promises and these vows I made you now
   seem to have no voice at all
   The color of the canyons
   When first it was said I love you
   But these colors and these canyons
   now all seem silly and small
   I don't understand at all
   how these colors in my memory just fade away
   into such a pale shade of grey
   
   *I say to myself My god I used to love him
   I wanted to share with him my womb and my world
   But now I stare at him as though through a glass wall
   I say I used to love him but now I feel nothing for him at all
   My god how could this be
   Won't you please explain this to me
   
   Now sleep sings to me in a sweet and urgent voice
   And I fear that I have no choice but to forget these flowers
   these daisies you gave me, the offerings you made me
   the vows that we swore by, swearing we'd be together
   always and forever, the children we named and now we'll never have
   and I know I'm supposed to meet you
   I don't even think I'll remember your name tomorrow
   
   I make myself remember
   Make myself recall
   but these promises and these vows I made you now
   seem to have no voice at all
   The color of the canyons
   When first it was said I love you
   But these colors and these canyons
   now all seem silly and small
   I don't understand at all
   how these colors in my memory just fade away
   into such a pale shade of grey